OK, I'm not sure if I've posted this or not.....if so, just ignore this post. If not, well then here it is. let me know wut u think!!
My heart is aching
with sorrow and pain.
And it’s all because of you;
You drive me insane.
How is it that you
have hurt me so?
When you haven’t done anything….
I’m filled with woe.
All you do is smile at me;
A simple, basic thing.
But it’s enough to drive me crazy;
Enough to make my heart sting.
I love you, I hate you.
You’re the worst, You’re the best.
You’re wonderful, You’re horrible.
I’m cursed, I’m blessed.
I once thought that I loved you,
But now I’m not so sure.
What if you don’t feel the same back?
Or what if you’re love is impure?
My soul is tortured & wretched.
I just can not decide.
I need someone I can trust;
In whom I know I can confide.
I once thought that I could trust you,
But now I am afraid.
What if you won’t be loyal?
What if I’m just a trade?
What if you’ll simply settle for me,
because I asked you first?
I don’t know if I could live with that.
I think my heart would burst.
I’m not even aloud to like you,
According to what my parents say.
But if we were really in love,
I think I would anyway.
So the question on my mind is this:
Am I or am I not in love with you?
And what’s more, that I want to know, is,
If so, do you love me too?
But I fear that I shall never find out,
How it is you truly feel.
For my true feelings, to you,
I shall never reveal.
But I still wish I could take a look,
Deep inside your mind.
Because I can’t help but wonder, if I knew you felt the same,
Would I risk it all, & leave everything else behind?
I want to give you up,
But if you feel the same way,
Would I admit to you my feelings?
Would I not be afraid to say?
So I sit here, and I dream,
That what I wish you’d feel is true.
And I sit here, and I wonder…
Wonder if you love me too.
& yes, I know wut ur room looks like!! 
SCARY!!! lol 