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Author:  Jax Nova [ March 8th, 2007, 11:59 am ]
Post subject:  For You
Here are the walls that I built for you,
Here are the bridges I burnt for you.
Here is the darkness where I hid for you,
Here are the things I did for you.

I broke my heart to make you whole,
I broke me spirit to save your soul.
I entered bondage to set you free,
I closed my eyes so you could see.

Here are the words I said for you,
Here are the pools I bled for you.
Here are the people I shunned for you,
All these things I've done for you.

I cut my throat to save your life,
I gave you my throat to sharpen your knife.
I blocked the sun to shade your face,
I hugged myself to feel your embrace.

I cant tear down the walls I built for you,
I can't rebuild the bridges I burnt for you.
Theres no light in the darkness where I hid for you,
I can't regret the things I did for you.

I can't take back the words I said for you,
I can't regain the blood I bled for you.
I can't accept the people I shunned for you,
I can't regret the things I've done for you.

So I ask you now, my shining sun, where is this jewel that you pledge?
I ask you now, darkened one, how sharp is this jewel's edge?
So I ask you now, my sparkling star, where is this gem you promised me?
I ask you now, blackened tar, so we can spend eternity.
Author:  ~*ArwenEvenstar*~ [ March 9th, 2007, 7:33 pm ]
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I love it, Jax!! :) This is one of the best you've done in awhile (which is REALLY saying something ;) ). I don't know what it is about this one that stands out so much for me, but I really like it. Just curious- did you have a particular inspiration for it??

Like I said, very nicely done!! :)
Author:  Jax Nova [ March 10th, 2007, 12:44 pm ]
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Thanks. :)

Really, I am basically talking about myself.

All my life I have built walls burnd bridges and all that stuff because I am nervious around other people or Iwant tobe alone, or I am depressed...

But in the end I am depressed because I am lonely... lol so it's kind of a sycle that I keep going through and I seem to expect something to come up toheal it.

It's kind of like I'm holding out for something special before I open up to anyone. *shrugs*
Author:  ~*ArwenEvenstar*~ [ March 10th, 2007, 4:16 pm ]
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Wow- creepy. :blink: I think I've said what you said above about a million times before, word for word. Seriously- I'm EXACTLY the same way. EXACTLY. I just am scared to trust anyone for some reason, and I'm scared to open up and let anyone in. I think I'm getting a little bit better about it, but I still need a lot of improvement. It's good to know that there are other people out there who are the same way I am though. :hug:

I guess it's kind of like.... more than anything I want to be loved, and yet it's the thing I fear above all else. If that makes sense. :confused:
Author:  Jax Nova [ March 12th, 2007, 10:24 am ]
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lol Well, I do feel sorry for you then.

But yeah, that's about sums it up. I want to be loved more than anything but fear it more than anything at the same time. *nods* I can understand that well
Author:  ~*ArwenEvenstar*~ [ March 12th, 2007, 7:12 pm ]
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I'm happy that someone else feels the same way I do, then, and that I'm not the only one. :)
Author:  Jax Nova [ March 13th, 2007, 12:36 pm ]
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Yes, it is nice to know your not alone. :)
Author:  pip&leggyluvr [ March 17th, 2007, 5:49 pm ]
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wow....omg.....jax.....i can totally relate to this one too....wow....this one is amazing...& wut u said arwen....about how all u want is 2 be loved.....but that's the thing u fear the most....i swear, that's me, word for word.....idk wut else 2 say....just that i totally understand wut both of u guys r going through.....cuz i'm going through it 2....& that i wish that u guys lived here, so i could hug u both right now! lol i guess i'll just have to be satisfied with this....*virtual hug* :hug: lol i'm glad there r ppl out there who understand & can relate....but i'm also sry that u guys can.....it's not fun....it's so hard.....so so hard.....
Author:  Jax Nova [ March 19th, 2007, 10:03 am ]
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Thanks pip. :) Always appreciate you reading and commenting.

And yeah, it's not fun, and it is hard.
It would be cool to have friends like you guys in real life that I could talk to as well and just hang out with. I have wondered about that before just like the issue of being loved....

Honestly the only thing I could come up with is somehow.... it's better this way. Even though I may not think so I am where god wants me right now and in some unseen way it's the best place for me to be right now. *shrugs* (But as I am sure you know that doesn't always do much to comfort)
Author:  ~*ArwenEvenstar*~ [ March 19th, 2007, 7:21 pm ]
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Not much to add on, except that I totally agree and must give you both one huge virtual hug. :P :hug: You guys are awesome- I don't know what I'd do without you. :)
Author:  The Nightingale [ March 20th, 2007, 7:40 am ]
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Wow... that's absolutely brilliant, beautiful, etc...
I love all of your poetry, but I think this is one of my favorites!
Author:  Jax Nova [ March 20th, 2007, 10:35 am ]
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Thanks nightingale :) Appreciate you reading and commenting.

Glad you liked it. I actually thought that this one turned out pretty well myself wich is unusuall for me when i finish a poem. lol
Author:  pip&leggyluvr [ March 20th, 2007, 5:13 pm ]
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~*ArwenEvenstar*~ wrote:
Not much to add on, except that I totally agree and must give you both one huge virtual hug. :P :hug: You guys are awesome- I don't know what I'd do without you. :)


idk wut else 2 say, but that i agree as well. *hug* i luv u guys so much!! :-D
Author:  Jax Nova [ March 21st, 2007, 11:07 am ]
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Ditto. :) :hug:
Author:  Jax Nova [ March 26th, 2007, 3:09 pm ]
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Never heard it but I have heard of it. It is a thought provoking song in many ways.
Author:  pip&leggyluvr [ March 26th, 2007, 9:54 pm ]
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i've heard it & i luv it! *sings along* lol :)
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