this is just... i just need to express it in some way or i'll explode. feedback welcome

When will it all end?
So people leave me be?
When will it be done?
So I can be alone?

When will it finish?
I can’t take anymore.
When will I be able to please you
With your constant demands of me?

Can’t I
Have
Some time
Alone?

Just to think?
Just to cry?
Alone?

You’re never satisfied.
I’m wondering if you ever will be.
Before I turn fifty?
Before I die?
Before the sun burns out?

I wonder.
When will I
Be perfect enough
For you?

When will I be done
Trying to please other people.
Or should I specify,
You?

You’re never appeased.
You never listen.
“No excuses,” you would say,
“It’s your own fault.
Correct your problems and you'll be good"

Maybe you never learned how to listen.

And I am hurt
Everytime
You say
"You’re stupid."
"You’re useless."
"Nobody wants you."

But you don’t realize it hurts me.

Deeply.

Even if it was a joke.

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Oh Eru, I know exactly how you feel! I think I've got the same issue. What's your email, i need to ask you a question.

Lindethiel

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~Old lurker from '06 crawling back for another adventure.~

You may call me Cazz.

pmed.

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I can seriously empathize with that. In fact, I've written something remarkably similar to that before.

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you showed me...
i think by now we would know our parents are similar
we've known each other for, what? 1 hour?
not exactly lol.

i think that bout described every chinese family in the US.
or most.

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