I just had a random thought yesterday and i just started to write... tell me if you guys like it, or if i should just give it up?

Chapter One

My blinds were closed so I couldn’t see or feel the sun. It was just one of those things I did not particularly enjoy. However, the window itself was thrown wide open in hopes of encouraging some sort of breeze--I desperately waited for a flutter of my curtains. Despite my fruitless hopes, my ceiling fan idled in its favorite off mode. It was late May, and the California sun boiled down on the almost quiet neighborhood. I could hear the far-off laughter of the kids at the park. They were obviously enjoying the heat. I personally hated it. I could not feel the enjoyment of something that made you sweat and just feel like crap. I couldn’t bring myself to tear my self away from my latest novel discovery. So that is how I am going to waste a perfectly good Saturday afternoon, holed up in my room reading. Not that I minded really, it was normal for me. Sadly though, my cell phone sat dutifully next to me, silent, as always. I rarely was called up by my friends.

I turned the page of the book and stared at the words with out comprehending them--I allowed my mind to wander the previous week. As my junior year of high school came to a close, I found myself fighting harder to stay sane. I put on a good show, or so I would like to believe. I always hung out with the same group and tried to be social. Although, I was far from a social butterfly. Still, I always hoped that one day I would receive a gift from the gods and become one of the popular girls. No…not really. Actually, I just wanted to be liked. The many years I did attend the same schools as half of my junior class hardly got me noticed. I now find myself slightly friendless and desperate to find a friendship. I immersed myself in studying, which only gained me adequate grades--enough for college at least. I tried not to think of the classes I was taking, I have a panic attack each time I think of everything I have to do in order to pass. I grimaced as I thought of my last panic attack. Two days ago when I found out that I had a major essay due in three days. I really thought I had more time than what I actually had. I threw one of my infamous fits, crying and then falling into a terrible mood. Of course, after I cried myself out, I was not able to fall asleep until 4 a.m. in the morning which only gave me about 2 hours of sleep. I still am feeling the after-effects. After that embarrassing episode, I forced myself into a secluded state, staying up in my room whenever possible.

Sighing, I got up and stretched my legs. They were sore from sitting cross-legged for hours. I yawned widely and then walked in front of my closet, which had mirrored doors. I studied my reflection with some sense of revulsion. I was more or less ordinary. My hair was neither blonde nor brown, but a strange mix of both. Having hair like mine made it hard to find colors that matched with it, also the awkward color of my skin made it impossible to wear most colors. My skin was fair with a small hint of a tan, a very bad and uneven tan. That was the minor things that I hated about my appearance. The more noticeable and nauseating, to me at least, was my body shape. Curves in all the wrong places and a very soft body. Everything I tried to make my body look more toned, failed. I tried every diet in the book, but every time I came up short. Really, it shouldn’t be a problem, I covered up most of the time. Jeans or flattering dresses, that is all I wore. Today however, in hopes of trying to stay cool, I wore a very worn in pair of jeans and a billowing tank top. They didn’t do me any justice.

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c'mon, tell me what ya think!! lol

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Well, I have to admit I have never read anything in this genre before. (But then again I don't read much at all... which I really shoudl change.) But considerign my lack of knowledge on the subject I would say it's a very interesting read. You certainly kept my attention.

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I loved reading this! I hope you add more!

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definitely. I wrote a lot more so i will hopefully put some up soon! I am glad you guys like it!

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Great! I can't wait to see it!

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Sounds ok. I usually don't read this kinda fiction, but hey, its alright IMHO.

Keep writing.

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"This is the hour of the Shire-folk, when they arise from their quiet fields to shake the towers and counsels of the Great. Who of all the Wise could have foreseen it? Or, if they are wise, why should they expect to know it, until the hour has struck? "

Keep writing most definitely. This really isn't my cup of tea either, but that's just the way I am.