i love the fact that that song (man on the moon) only has so many "yeah"s cuz they were trying to beat nirvana, who were going through a "yeah" phase. surely r.e.m. won.

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<center>

**MY BOOK**

~ proud to be a shieldmaiden for christ ~</center>

Nos da Cariad - David Gray.


One lifetime is long enough,
Is long enough to wait
The rain like silver in my ears
Fat nothing on my plate
A bucketful of Babylon
A belly full of hate

Go to sleep my one true love
And may your dreams be sweet

Then we'll be running...

See its face beneath the glass
It murmurs on the breeze
Like a long black Cadillac
It passes 'neath the trees
What is it you're waiting for?
Sweet love is on its knees

Go to sleep my one true love
And find your heart's release...

Then we'll be running

Afraid of nothing

Yeah we'll be running

Silence is golden

Here I am

I ain't afraid of nothing

Silence is golden

Here I am

The sun above the cotton grass
Is sinking down like lead
The seagulls know the truth of it
And scream it overhead
Hold on to St. Christopher
The sky is murderous red

Go to sleep my one true love
Our glory lies ahead..

Then we'll be running

Afraid of nothing

Then we'll be running

All wired up in a dawning ray

All wired up in a dawning ray

All wired up in a dawning ray

All wired up in a dawning ray

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Those who find ugly meanings, in beautiful things, are corrupt without being charming. This is a fault. -Oscar Wilde-

The Who - The Seeker

I've looked under chairs
I've looked under tables
I've tried to find the key
To fifty million fables

chorus:
They call me The Seeker
I've been searching low and high
I won't get to get what I'm after
Till the day I die

I asked Bobby Dylan
I asked The Beatles
I asked Timothy Leary
But he couldn't help me either

chorus

People tend to hate me
'Cause I never smile
As I ransack their homes
They want to shake my hand

Focusing on nowhere
Investigating miles
I'm a seeker
I'm a really desperate man

I won't get to get what I'm after
Till the day I die

I learned how to raise my voice in anger
Yeah, but look at my face, ain't this a smile?
I'm happy when life's good
And when it's bad I cry
I've got values but I don't know how or why

I'm looking for me
You're looking for you
We're looking in at each other
And we don't know what to do

chorus

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Let him curse my name
On these blood stained pages of misery
Let him call me a tyrant so cruel
Let him curse my name, but remember the truth!

Die Another Day - Madonna


Im gonna wake up, yes and no
Im gonna kiss some part of
Im gonna keep this secret
Im gonna close my body now

I guess, die another day
I guess, die another day
I guess, die another day
I guess, die another day

I guess Ill die another day
[another day]
I guess Ill die another day
[another day]
I guess Ill die another day
[another day]
I guess Ill die another day

Sigmund freud
Analyze this
Analyze this
Analyze this

Im gonna break the cycle
Im gonna shake up the system
Im gonna destroy my ego
Im gonna close my body now

Uh, uh

I think Ill find another way
Theres so much more to know
I guess Ill die another day
Its not my time to go

For every sin, Ill have to pay
Ive come to work, Ive come to play
I think Ill find another way
Its not my time to go

Im gonna avoid the cliche
Im gonna suspend my senses
Im gonna delay my pleasure
Im gonna close my body now

I guess, die another day
I guess Ill die another day
I guess, die another day
I guess Ill die another day

I think Ill find another way
Theres so much more to know
I guess Ill die another day
Its not my time to go

Uh, uh

(laugh)

I guess, die another day
I guess Ill die another day
I guess, die another day
I guess Ill die another day

Another day
(repeat six times)

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Still happily married to Sean Bean! (05-Feb-2010)

The War Was In Color by Carbon Leaf

I see you've found a box of my things -
Infantries, tanks and smoldering airplane wings.
These old pictures are cool. Tell me some stories
Was it like the old war movies?
Sit down son. Let me fill you in

Where to begin? Let's start with the end
This black and white photo don't capture the skin
From the flash of a gun to a soldier who's done
Trust me grandson
The war was in color

From shipyard to sea, From factory to sky
From rivet to rifle, from boot camp to battle cry
I wore the mask up high on a daylight run
That held my face in its clammy hand
Crawled over coconut logs and corpses in the coral sand

Where to begin? Let¹s start with the end
This black and white photo don't capture the skin
From the shock of a shell or the memory of smell
If red is for Hell
The war was in color

I held the canvas bag over the railing
The dead released, with the ship still sailing,
Out of our hands and into the swallowing sea
I felt the crossfire stitching up soldiers
Into a blanket of dead, and as the night grows colder
In a window back home, a Blue Star is traded for Gold.

Where to begin? Let's start with the end
This black and white photo don't capture the skin
When metal is churned. And bodies are burned
Victory earned
The War was in color

Now I lay in my grave at age 21
Long before you were born
Before I bore a son
What good did it do?
Well hopefully for you
A world without war
A life full of color

Where to begin? Let's start with the end
This black and white photo never captured my skin
Once it was torn from an enemy thorn
Straight through the core
The war was in color

Where to begin? Let's start with the end
This black and white photo never captured my skin
From the flash of a gun to a soldier who's done
Trust me grandson
The war was in color

Koda Kumi - Real Emotion~English (opening theme for Final Fantasy X-2)

What can I do for you?

What can I do for you?
What can I do for you?
What can I do for you?
I can't hear you...
What can I do for you?
What can I do for you?

Never thought that I would wind up myself
You got all my wild...
Imagination
But I hear, I am finding myself so lost
Everyday is a way, for me to turn back

All of the things I see
They're different from
What I had imagined they would be
Everything is different
Now I'm getting dizzy spells

It's real emotion
Shaking up the world
I'll never give it up
I don't ever want to lose, this far
No more than I can do but I am just too wrong
And in my heart I can hear you say
That I am not alone

What can I do for you?
What can I do for you?
What can I do for you?
I can't hear you...
What can I do for you?
What can I do for you?
What can I do for you?

Never got to look back
I'm already here
Cause you gave me faith
I'm on my own now
If anything happens unexpectedly
I know you are there
To come and save me

What do I do now?
What can I do now?
For the truth that you have made me see
All that I can do now
Is believe in what I feel

It's real emotion
Shaking up the world
I'll be forever blessed
For you to stand by me
Thank you for
So many things you tell me
That's why I am here
You gave me strength and now I know
That I am not alone

What can I do for you?
What can I do for you?

What can I do for you?
What can I do for you?
What can I do for you?
What can I do for you?
I can't hear you...

It's real emotion
Shaking up the world
You're always here with me
So deep in my heart
And I, am near
Beside you where you need me
Since I'm finally strong
Just close your eyes and you'll see me here
'Cause you are not alone

It's real emotion
Shaking up the world
I'll never give it up
I don't ever want to lose, this far
No more than I can do but I am just too wrong
And in my heart I can hear you say
That I am not alone

What can I do for you?
What can I do for you?
What can I do for you?
I can't hear you...
What can I do for you?
What can I do for you?
What can I do for you?
I can't hear you...

I can't hear you...

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Still happily married to Sean Bean! (05-Feb-2010)

Rascal Flatts "My Wish"

I hope that the days come easy and the moments pass slow,
And each road leads you where you want to go,
And if you're faced with a choice, and you have to choose,
I hope you choose the one that means the most to you.
And if one door opens to another door closed,
I hope you keep on walking till you find the window,
If it's cold outside, show the world the warmth of your smile,
But more than anything, more than anything,
My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to,
Your dreams stay big, your worries stay small,
You never need to carry more than you can hold,
And while you're out there getting where you're getting to,
I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too,
This, is my wish.

I hope you never look back, but you never forget,
All the ones who love you, in the place you left,
I hope you always forgive, and you never regret,
And you help somebody every chance you get,
Oh, you find God's grace, in every mistake,
And you always give more than you take.
But more than anything, more than anything,

My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to,
Your dreams stay big, and your worries stay small,
You never need to carry more than you can hold,
And while you're out there getting where you're getting to,
I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too,
This, is my wish

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<center>“Envy consists in seeing things never in themselves, but only in their relations. If you desire glory, you may envy Napoleon, but Napoleon envied Caesar, Caesar envied Alexander, and Alexander, I daresay, envied Hercules, who never existed.”
at one point, I was alejandrah.

Tarot - Rider Of The Last Day

The flesh is weak, the bones are brittle, the blood is thin.
I'm a father, brother, lover to all you sisters of sin.
My soul was never sold, I gave it away for free.
No conscience worries, just me.

I'm the rider of the last day.
The rider of the last day.
Better lose your dreams on me.
They were wasted anyway.

The stars are my brothers, they're calling me to shine.
Into the deep dark cold, all this emptiness is mine.
Here's my hand, take it and I'll share it all with you.
There are no saviours but one and you know who.

I'm the rider...

Bathe in the coolness of meteor rain.
Walk unscarred through the bullet hail.
Feet in the mud, fist to the sky.
Draw strength from the lightning spitting my eye.

Lost from holiness, I couldn't care less.
Drudgery for the masses of the hopeless.
Wide-eyed hypnosis, just stare your life away.
Build in my castle from your shreds,
burn it down on judgement day.

I'm the rider...

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Let him curse my name
On these blood stained pages of misery
Let him call me a tyrant so cruel
Let him curse my name, but remember the truth!

Waitin' For A Superman - Iron & Wine

Asked you a question
I didn't need you to reply
Is it gettin' heavy?
But they'll realize
Is it gettin' heavy?
Well I thought it was already as heavy
As can be

Is it overwhelming
To use a crane to crush a fly?
It's a good time for Superman
To lift the sun into the sky

'Cause it's gettin' heavy
Well I thought it was already as heavy
As can be

Tell everybody
Waitin' for Superman
That they should try to hold on
Best they can
He hasn't dropped them
Forgot them
Or anything
It's just too heavy for Superman to lift

Is it gettin' heavy?
Well I thought it was already as heavy as can be.

Tell everybody
Waitin' for Superman
That they should try to hold on
Best they can
He hasn't dropped them
Forgot them
Or anything
It's just too heavy for Superman to lift

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^Great song

The Highwayman - Loreena McKennitt

The wind was a torrent of darkness among the gusty trees
The moon was a ghostly galleon tossed upon the cloudy seas
The road was a ribbon of moonlight over the purple moor
And the highwayman came riding, riding, riding,
The highwayman came riding, up to the old inn-door.

He'd a French cocked hat on his forehead, a bunch of lace at his chin,
A coat of claret velvet, and breeches of brown doe-skin;
They fitted with never a wrinkle; his boots were up to the thigh
And he rode with a jewelled twinkle,
His pistol butts a-twinkle,
His rapier hilt a-twinkle, under the jewelled sky.

Over the cobbles he clattered and clashed in the dark innyard,
And he tapped with his whip on the shutters, but all was locked and barred;
He whistled a tune to the window, and who should be waiting there
But the landlord's black-eyed daughter,
Bess, the landlord's daughter,
Plaiting a dark red love-knot into her long black hair.

"One kiss, my bonny sweetheart, I'm after a prize tonight,
But I shall be back with the yellow gold before the morning light;
Yet if they press me sharply, and harry me through the day,
Then look for me by the moonlight, watch for me by the moonlight,
I'll come to thee by the moonlight, though hell should bar the way.

He rose upright in the stirrups; he scarce could reach her hand
But she loosened her hair in the casement! His face burnt like a brand
As the black cascade of the perfume came tumbling over his breast;
And he kissed its waves in the moonlight,
(Oh, sweet waves in the moonlight!)
He tugged at his rein in the moonlight, and galloped away to the west.

He did not come at the dawning; he did not come at noon,
And out of the tawny sunset, before the rise o' the moon,
When the road was a gypsy's ribbon, looping the purple moor,
A red-coat troop came marching, marching, marching
King George's men came marching, up to the old inn-door.

They said no word to the landlord, they drank his ale instead,
But they gagged his daughter and bound her to the foot of her narrow bed;
Two of them knelt at the casement, with muskets at their side
there was death at every window, hell at one dark window;
For Bess could see, through the casement,
The road that he would ride.

They had tied her up to attention, with many a sniggering jest;
They had bound a musket beside her, with the barrel beneath her breast
"now keep good watch!" And they kissed her.
She heard the dead man say
"Look for me by the moonlight, watch for me by the moonlight
I'll come to thee by the moonlight, though hell should bar the way!"

She twisted her hands behind her, but all the knots held good
She writhed her hands till her fingers were wet with sweat or blood
They stretched and strained in the darkness and the hours crawled by like years
Till, now, on the stroke of midnight, cold, on the stroke of midnight,
The tip of one finger touched it! The trigger at least was hers!

Tlot-tlot! Had they heard it? The horses hoofs ring clear
Tlot-tlot, in the distance! Were they deaf that they did not hear?
Down the ribbon of moonlight, over the brow of the hill,
The highwayman came riding, riding, riding!
The red-coats looked to their priming!
She stood up straight and still!

Tlot in the frosty silence! Tlot, in the echoing night
Nearer he came and nearer! Her face was like a light
Her eyes grew wide for a moment! She drew one last deep breath,
Then her finger moved in the moonlight, her musket shattered the moonlight,
Shattered her breast in the moonlight and warned him with her death.

He turned; he spurred to the west; he did not know she stood
bowed, with her head o'er the musket, drenched with her own red blood
Not till the dawn he heard it; his face grew grey to hear
How Bess, the landlord's daughter, the landlord's black-eyed daughter,
Had watched for her love in the moonlight, and died in the darkness there.

And back, he spurred like a madman, shrieking a curse to the sky
With the white road smoking behind him and his rapier brandished high
Blood-red were the spurs in the golden noon; wine-red was his velvet coat,
when they shot him down on the highway, down like a dog on the highway,
And he lay in his blood on the highway, with the bunch of lace at his throat.

Still of a winter's night, they say, when the wind is in the trees,
When the moon is a ghostly galleon, tossed upon the cloudy seas,
When the road is a ribbon of moonlight over the purple moor,
A highwayman comes riding, riding, riding,
A highwayman comes riding, up to the old inn-door.

Trust You - Koda Kumi

Romaji

aimai no sono shigusa itsu demo watashi madowasu
itsuwari no sono kankei isso owari ni
"junsui na onnanoko" mukashi wa akogarete ita
itsu datte watashi wa anata wo hitsuyou to suru

Precious night tomo ni sugo$hita ano yoru
Once again mou ichido modoretara
ayamachi no kako sae mo wasureru koto ga dekiru hazu dakara

* Crazy sou anata dake mitsumeru itsumademo
toki ga sugiru koto mo wasureta you ni
anata wo itsu demo ai $hiteru
Baby Trust you motomete shimau
itsu made matta nara anata wa furimuku no
odorasareru dake ga onna ja nai yo
kami wo naderu anata no te no nukumori motometeru

moshimo kono chikyuu ga tashika na koto dake de itsumo
ugoite iru no nara kanashimanakute ii
gaiken no yasashisa wo dare ni demo furimaiteru
sonna anata dakara hanarerarezu ni iru yeah

futari ga donna katachi de attemo
issho ni ireba mitsumete kureru no
sou yatte kodomo no you ni ayasarete mata wana ni hamatteku

Crazy mou BARANSU ga torenai dakishimete
sokora no GE-MU ja nai futari no kankei
anata wa watashi no subete dewa nai to
Trust You iikikasetemo
kokoro wa tomerarenai mitsumeru saki ni wa mou
dare ni mo kaerarenai anata ga iru no
kami wo nadete watashi dake no nukumori kanjite hoshii

Precious love
Once again

ayamachi no kako sae mo wasureru koto ga dekiru hazu dakara

* repeat

English Translation

Your vague gestures always confuses me
I might as well put an end to that false relationship
"[I'm a] pure girl"; way back then I yearned for you
I always needed you

Precious night, those nights we spent together
Once again, if we could go back [in time] once again,
we should be able to forget even the mistakes of the past

*Crazy, yes, I gazed at only you forever
I even seemed to forget about the time passing by
I always love you
Baby Trust you, I demand
Even if I waited forever, you turn around
I'm not a girl that you can just make dance around
You stroke my hair, I'm seeking the warmth of your hands

If this earth always moves
because of only the things that we are certain about, it's ok not to regret
You appear to be kind to everyone
That's how you are, so I can't be apart from you, yeah

No matter how we look,
when we're together, you look at me
Being caressed like a child, I'll be falling in a trap again

Crazy, I can't balance anymore, hold me
Our relationship is not such a game
When you're not my everything,
even if you tell me to Trust You,
my heart can't stop, before I look
no one can change you, & you're here
I want you to stroke my hair, feeling only my warmth

Precious love
Once again

we should be able to forget even the mistakes of the past

*repeat

(($ = S))

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Still happily married to Sean Bean! (05-Feb-2010)

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Call Me When You're Sober - Evanescence

Don't cry to me.
If you loved me,
You would be here with me.
You want me,
Come find me.
Make up your mind.

Should I let you fall?
Lose it all?
So maybe you can remember yourself.
Can't keep believing,
We're only deceiving ourselves .
And I'm sick of the lie,
And you're too late.

Don't cry to me.
If you loved me,
You would be here with me.
You want me,
Come find me.
Make up your mind.

Couldn't take the blame.
Sick with shame.
Must be exhausting to lose your own game.
Selfishly hated,
No wonder you're jaded.
You can't play the victim this time,
And you're too late.

Don't cry to me.
If you loved me,
You would be here with me.
You want me,
Come find me.
Make up your mind.

You never call me when you're sober.
You only want it cause it's over,
It's over.

How could I have burned paradise?
How could I - you were never mine.

So don't cry to me.
If you loved me,
You would be here with me.
Don't lie to me,
Just get your things.
I've made up your mind.

((This song is a PERFECT example of my relationship with my father.))

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Still happily married to Sean Bean! (05-Feb-2010)

Dead - My Chemical Romance

And if your heart stops beating
I'll be there wondering
Did you get what you deserve?
The ending of your life

And if you get to Heaven
I'll be here waiting, baby
Did you get what you deserve?
The ending of your life won't wait
Then your heart can't take this hell

You heard the news that you're dead
No one ever had much nice to say
I think I never liked you anyway
You're dead
Free from the hospital bed
Wouldn't it be grand
It ain't exactly what you planned
And wouldn't it be great if
We were dead

All Dead!

So tired and oh so squeamish
You never fell in love
Did you get what you deserve?
The ending of your life

And if you get to Heaven
I'll be here waiting, baby
Did you get what you deserve?
The ending of your life won't wait
Then your heart can't take this hell

You heard the news that you're dead
No one ever had much nice to say
I think I never liked you anyway
You're dead
Free from the hospital bed
Wouldn't it be grand
Take a pistol by the hand
And wouldn't it be great if
We were dead

And in my honest observation
To ring this operation
Found a complication
In your heart, so long
Cause now you've got
Maybe just two weeks to live
Is that the most, the most that you can give?

One, Two, One Two Three Four
La la la la la,
La la la la la,
La la la la la,
La la la la la,
La la la la la,
La la la la la,

If life ain't just a joke
Then why are we laughing?
Ain't just a joke
Then why are we laughing?
Ain't just a joke
Then why are we laughing?
Ain't just a joke
Then why am I dead?

Dead!

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I was cured all right.